Money

Money.
It can't make you happy.
Nobody talks about it.
Everybody thinks about it.
You can never have enough of it.

Money has never been a huge issue in my life. I admit there are times that I have worried about making enough, but it was more about what I wanted than it was about what I needed. I've always been comfortable. The bills have always gotten paid. Until now.

I am in some sort of transition in my life that doesn't make any sense. I took a job God asked me to take, only to lose it six weeks later. I'm now struggling to survive on minimum wage and something just isn't adding up. I've been questioning God for a while now, and I pray hourly for there to be enough money.

There it is again. The money. It's not about the job. It's not about God. It's about the money.

We started a new series at church this week called "Empty Promises". It's about idols and the things in life that take all your time, thoughts, and energy. My pastor made the point that things like money won't give you peace. And yet, I must be a really screwed up believer because it seems the idea of having enough money WOULD give me peace. It WOULD help me sleep at night. But would it really?

I don't know what God is doing in my life right now, and I don't know if I have enough faith or patience to please Him. But I do know that when questioned about the things that take all my thoughts, money is at the top of the list. If you're honest, it's probably on yours, too. I'm praying that God shakes me of this in the coming weeks. I pray that even though it seems that I don't have enough, I can learn that He is my enough. And that money doesn't matter.

Money.
Can it make you happy?
Can it change your life?
Will there EVER be enough?

I don't know the answers to these questions, but I have a feeling I'm going to find out.