today's thought

i have found a million things and a million people to blame for why things turned out the way they did. i could spend the rest of my life finding more. but in the end, it wasn't until the moment that i realized that it wasn't my fault, or anyone else's, but instead the work of God, who knew better than i ever did, that made things turn out the way they did. so maybe it will be alright after all. and maybe i can stop being so angry. and maybe i can find peace in the idea that it happened this way because it was supposed to. and maybe i'll be okay. and maybe i can stop running. just maybe.